Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I used to be one of those people that made a long list of resolutions to prepare for the new year. I would stick by them all, diligently, for a month, at the most, and then beat myself up for the rest of the year for not following through with any of them.
Something changed for me this year! I realized that everyday, in fact, every moment is a chance for a fresh start. I seem to get more accomplished, learn more about me, and am overall quite happier when I allow myself to start fresh everyday, not just every year.
Don't get me wrong I'm very excited about the new year, just like I am about everyday! I can't wait to see what opportunities are going to unfold!
I would like to wish all of you a very happy, healthy, and wonderful 2009!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I'm giving myself major kudos! Today, it's been five years since I've smoked a cigarette.!
I had a health professor who said that after five years of quitting (smoking, drinking, drugs...etc) people were less likely to return to the addictive behavior. So, in my mind, this anniversary is sort of a milestone.
Honestly, at the time, I didn't think I was ready to quit, nor did I really want to. But I was super sick; sick enough that I wasn't even wanting to smoke, so I decided to give it a try.
I quit cold turkey.
The first year was the worst. I literally felt like I had lost my best friend. (It's weird how addiction works.) I kept a few smokes in my car, for about that long...just in case. I was very depressed, but I never gave in.
I guess, after that, I considered myself a non-smoker.
The next few years were hard, but not as bad as the first one. I was in college, then, and with the stress of exams, papers, and such, smoking was still very tempting. However, the cravings, and bouts with anxiety were becoming less frequent. Sometimes, and this is still the case, the smell of cigarette smoke was nauseating, and other times it was wonderfully seductive; like embracing a long lost friend. Still, I never gave in.
Now, it's much easier, and the cravings are almost nonexistent. There are times, though, where I desperately miss smoking. Periodically, I wish that I was one of those people that could just have a cigarette once in a while; maybe while drinking. But I'm not. I know that once in a while would quickly turn into a pack a day, so I restrict myself from even one puff. And on most days, I'm ok with that.
The health benefits, from quitting, have been amazing. I can breathe so much better now. Also, my chronic cough has disappeared entirely.
Today, I'm quite proud of myself for never giving in! Five years, and counting....
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
All new additions are listed below.
Over Cups of Coffee
I'm Going Slightly Mad!
Awake & Dreaming
The Mind of Spaz
Monday, December 22, 2008
Guns N' Roses-- White Christmas
Skid Row--Jingle Bells
Warrant--Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Longest Night of the Year
The winter solstice marks the shortest day and the longest night of the year. The sun appears at its lowest point in the sky, and its noontime elevation appears to be the same for several days before and after the solstice. Hence the origin of the word solstice, which comes from Latin solstitium, from sol, “sun” and -stitium, “a stoppage.” Following the winter solstice, the days begin to grow longer and the nights shorter.I especially like that after the winter solstice days begin to become longer and nights shorter.
Below is a poem that I thought fitting for the longest night of the year!
BLESSED BE THE NIGHT
Twilight is a time for sharing - and a time for remembering - sharing the fragrance of the cooling earth - the shadows of the gathering dusk -
Here our two worlds meet and pass - the frantic sounds of man grow dimmer as the light recedes - the unhurried rhythm of the other world swells in volume as the darkness deepens -
It is not strange that discord has no place in this great symphony of sound-
It is not strange that a sense of peace descend upon all living things -
It is not strange that memories burn more brightly - as the things of substance lose their line and form in the softness of the dark -
Twilight is a time for sharing - and a time for remembering - remembering the
things of beauty wasted by our careless hands - our frequent disregard of other
living things - the many songs unheard because we would not listen -
Listen tonight with all the wisdom of your spirit.
Listen too with all the compassion of your heart, lest there come another night when there is only silence.
A great and total silence.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
How cool is this? I think VERY, and that's why I'm sharing it with you!
First, let me say that I LOVE to throw things! I'll admit it -- I'm an emotional thrower, and when I'm sad, angry, or frustrated, you will see things fly across the room. (Phones are my most common victims.) Also, aside from throwing, I like to kick...but that's an entirely different story.
So, let's get back to it -- Sarah's Smash Shack in San Diego is awesome! Admittedly, I've never been, but had I known about it when I lived in close proximity -- you would have seen me there quite often!
At Sarah's Smash Shack, not only can you throw stuff -- you can BREAK it. In fact, that's the point! You can break alone, or with a group of friends. They are prepared with many "break room" options.
Bring your own stuff, or choose something from their menu! Plates, glasses, vases...
They even have markers, so you can write on things before you break them!
Also, there are MP3 player hookups in each room. I imagine that the whole smashing things experience gets even better when you're listening to your own music!
Thought it couldn't get any better than that? Well so did I, until I read that you can take your broken pieces home, or, even better, donate them.
Sarah's Smash Shack will give your pieces to local artisans, art therapy programs, or other organizations for student projects.
Ok so, if you couldn't tell -- just the existence of this place makes me very happy!
I'm contemplating creating my own smash shack in my garage. :)
pic taken from here
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
For those who don't yet understand themselves, Jessica, it's impossible that they might understand you.
I understand you,
Don't let their choices offend you, their words hurt you, or their actions upset you, Jessica. And as you come to understand them, try not to laugh once they get cranked back up.
You can get notes from the Universe too--sign up here.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Next, the Salvation Army. A wonderful organization that helps many who are in need. I try to give to them, when I can. If you would like to join me, just donate to my virtual kettle. It doesn't have to be much; every little bit helps.
They have many great ways to give. My friend, Fortune Cookies, wrote extensively about the Angel Tree Program. The program is an awesome way to help disadvantaged children celebrate the holidays.
Last, but not least, I posted at Smiley Tissues. It's sure to make you smile, so go visit!
Monday, December 8, 2008
This is a cover of my favorite Kiss song, done extremely well! Listen, and tell me what you think. Also, tell me what you've been listening to! Either here, or on your own blog. If you do your own post, remember to come back and let me know.
Happy Monday! :)
Now playing: The Cardigans - Lovefool
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
With the economy so crappy these days, even an extra $6...helps out so much. Just another reminder that there are good people in this world.
*Update* I wrote most of this post earlier....then I started feeling gloomy/blue. (not about the post, of course) When I came back to it, reading it made me feel a bit better...just knowing that I was the recipient of a random act of kindness made me feel good. So I would like to say thank you, once again, to the anonymous woman who decided I should receive her bus pass, this morning.